Serenity now!
Posted in bitch, culture, learning, music, opportunities, pursuit of happiness, quotes, these thoughts on January 30th, 2008 by LC – Be the first to commentEveryday, do something that scares you.
Yesterday, I got off my lazy butt to attend an Aikido class from 7-9pm.
It was worth it. In two hours I felt more confident/less helpless.
I am going to continue the Monday night ritual…
Even if we will be punching each other in the face.
My Sierra Nevada pint glass broke.
It crashed to the floor while I was washing dishes.
It was startling.
I don’t like when my glasses break.
I’ve already broken two glasses in this apartment, whereas in my last 4 years I’ve only broken a bowl.
Papa Roach’s lyrics seem more fitting now than ever:
“I’m walking on broken glass
from the wreckage of my past”
Overwhelmed.
I exploded[cried]. I let it out. And it felt better.
I’m battling to stay in this hypnotic daze from my travels; however, the logical part of me says to “acclimate now!”
I don’t want to acclimate just yet. I like seeing things differently…and strongly.
I have the rest of my life to be numb in my own culture.
But a lot of me is getting scared.
Being out of sync with the environment is scary.
I can’t stay out of sync, no matter how much I want to because I’m losing face with all that I’ve ever known.
Or so it feels that way.
I want to stop feeling.
