1. Rosemary
2. Jade
3. Aloe
4. Tomato
5. Easter Lily
6. Dieffenbachia (Camille)
7. Plumeria
8. Strawberry-Tomato
9. Weeping Fig
10. Cyclamen (white)
11. Cyclamen (pink)
12. Lipstick plant

I think I’m turning into a plant-lady, similar to a “cat lady.” I don’t know if this hobby is going to be something that I’ll have to hide from people or what…

It’s definitely a challenge.

As an external auditor, people hate me before they even meet me.

I’m not used to that.

Throughout engagements I’ve attempted to show that I’m a sensitive, human being who is going to use keen judgment when testing their IT infrastructure controls.

I understand that humans make mistakes.

I will be sensitive to you, if you are likewise to me.

It’s a reciprocation, really.

I’ve recently been presented switching service lines into information protection and business resilience.

I’m not exactly sure what that entails — I would be lying if I said that I understood what it was all about.

But truthfully, I’m just as lost about it as I was with information risk management in the external audit.

My largest concern is being a noob all over again.

But if I don’t do it now, it’ll get much more difficult.

I might even get stuck in my ways and enjoy a level of comfort of knowing exactly how to do my job.

The only problem with this is that the line of work that I do right now is not rewarding.

I’m having a hard time understanding what kind of skills and resources I need in order to do something that I am passionate about; thus, a huge disconnect between the experience I’m obtaining in my day-to-day versus where I want to be, soon.

I think that this year will require me to really push myself in developing a career that I enjoy.

I’ve written down areas that I want to pursue, but I need more information in order to figure out what I need to do to get there.

I’ll be doing a lot of communicating with various people, I know.

I am passionate about what I want in life and I hope that it’ll help drive the change that ultimately, brings me fulfillment and inner peace with each day that I am involved.

I will not settle with a job that does not make me happy.

I will put in just enough time to figure out what I really want to do.

I think the most difficult thing about it all is that my principles aren’t set in stone.

I don’t know whether they will ever be.

I’m not sure why I need to do “the right thing” — because it’s the right thing? Because if someone else were in my shoes, I would want them to do the right thing?

Ugh. It’s hard to wrap my head around it all.

While I shouldn’t be selfish, I feel that my happiness is compromised when I do things for others that I really just don’t feel like doing.

It’s a battle between doing the right thing versus compromising my happiness.

It’s just a short-term happiness that I’m compromising, or is it?

I can see how good people make mistakes.

I can see how easily one can veer and not do the right thing, and that it takes all the strength and willpower that one has, in order to do the right thing when one clearly doesn’t want to do it.

Humans weren’t made to do the right things — we weren’t meant to be perfect.

Humans try to condition themselves to do the right things…so that we can say that we’re good people?

But we all fuck up.

We all fail at some point in time.

What is this need to always do the right thing?

I’m driving myself crazy.

What if I I choose not to do the right thing and I’m happy about it?

I’m a bad person because I intend to do the very opposite of the right thing.

Why is it so black and white?

Perhaps, if I can live with my actions then that’s okay?

It’s all so gray.

Fuck the noise inside my head.

the touch.

The warm

affection.

A fiery flaming

passion.

Sexually lawless

and unrestrained.

We are really nothing

more than animals.

To scratch the itch,

to feed the crave,

to let go and just forget

how to behave we just

do what we must

the primitive

natural way

releasing energy just to

feel good.