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Step 2: Unsticking Mental and Physical Ruts

LC — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 03:54:50 +0000

I know things I need to do. Like exercise.

I like being outdoors. I like getting fresh air and exercising.

But the hardest part is getting out to go do it.

I don’t get it.

I can’t stand taking 2/3 classes anymore.

I go stir-crazy in Biology and anxious doing Macroeconomics online.

Not sure how I’m going to get through the semester when I don’t read and memorize the concepts.

One thing at a time.

One day at a time.

I’m stuck, mentally.

I can’t throw myself on people, no matter how bad I want to.

It’s so juvenile.

And heaven forbid I come off that way.

I seem to have thwarted most everyone off because I’m too damn “busy.”

I don’t want to use and abuse…

Thus, I stay physically frustrated.

All I want is a nice, quick, but passionate one that will “scratch the itch.”

It may make me want more and hook me into my old friend “addiction –”

But it’s a temporary fix.

It’ll be an illusion of “happiness” for a little bit.

I think that may be all I need to jump-start my bed-crazy May…

No point in breaking the habit this year.

Sighs.

Growing up

LC — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 01:50:54 +0000

He says I can walk away and wonder what if.
That way, I won’t get my feelings hurt and I’ll come out ahead.
However, I would be wondering if there was something more.
I’m scared of liking him too much.
But he says that he likes me and I like him.

So why not.

I’ll practice resilience when it all ends.

But he is optimistic.

And that makes me optimistic.

He provides comfort before I feel insecure.

It’s like he can read my mind, before I even know how I’m going to react.

I’ve never felt so stable.

I’ve never had so much reassurance.

I always know where I stand with him.

He invited me to a wedding.

He says only single guys go by themselves.

What I thought would just be a fling,

is turning into something more.

I had forgotten what it felt like looking forward to seeing that person.

I like the feeling.

Today I was upset at him for not giving me enough affection.

It was the process of not “pre-heating the oven before baking” syndrome.

If he doesn’t get sick of me asking for more affection, it just might work out.

I like him.

I think he’s fun to hang out with.

I told him he should continue looking forward to hearing that, because one day I just might say,

“I don’t like you anymore.”

And we’d go our separate ways.

All his friends seem to like me, or so he tells me.

He has yet to meet my core — and I can’t wait.

Hopefully board game weekend. :: nervous ::

He’s trying to book a gig for his birthday weekend.

I hope he books the Friday night.

I <3 his silly music!

I’m tired.

Nap time.

That’s something I learned from him.

He can’t seem to get enough sleep.

He’s a sleep technician.

How ironic.

Why men should just give up at baking

LC — Sat, 30 May 2009 21:56:25 +0000

…or learn to take direction from women.

They prepare and bake haphazardly — without care, without passion, without love; just to get it done.
They don’t read directions. They just do whatever the hell they want.
They forget that they need to pre-heat the oven. Sticking the mix directly in the oven often turns into a slow and unsuccessful baking experience.

Hedonism

LC — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 05:25:19 +0000

We’re looking for

the touch.

The warm

affection.

A fiery flaming

passion.

Sexually lawless

and unrestrained.

We are really nothing

more than animals.

To scratch the itch,

to feed the crave,

to let go and just forget

how to behave we just

do what we must

the primitive

natural way

releasing energy just to

feel good.

Expectations.

LC — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 22:51:19 +0000

Whether you’re dealing with expectations from…

Friends
Relationships
Family
Work
Places – cities, environments, culture

It always seems favorable to have none.

You always feel surprised.

You always get something.

Because you aren’t as mindful about your standards.

You’re much more carefree and perhaps a bit careless at times.

But as reality would have it, we all have expectations that have developed from our experiences, and the true challenge is learning when it’s appropriate to expect something.